She's had too many people calling her any of those words. Has she got goddam low IQ? Has her mom dropped her when she was baby? Does she always get terrible grades in her study? NO. She just seems...well...she indeed cannot use her brain on one damn thing called...love.
Having been able to escape from a horrible relationship didn't make her any smarter to learn from her mistake. Even donkeys won't fall into the same hole twice, they say. But no, she looks nothing like a donkey.
The biggest flaw of her is, that once she falls in love, it'll be a hell lot difficult for her to fall out it. There the story began....
No, I won't tell you the whole story because...I just won't.
There was this guy who fell in love with her (umm...I'm not sure about this but just say so...) and she fell for him as well. Then they got married and lived happily ever after with bunch of cute babies? The end?
Sorry for disappointing, but the answer of those questions is a BIG FAT NO.
The fact was, he left her just at the moment she had madly been in love with him and everything felt like heaven to her.
He just left.
Without warning.
Without announcement.
Without a word.
He just did.
Period.
All she could do was only crying crying and crying. Until there was no more tears left that she could only sob. Trust me, that was the time when the pain hurt the most. And he would never know how much she cried when he left. Ever. I dare to bet anything on that.
All her friends told her, "If he's DUMB enough to walk away, be SMART enough to let him go..."
Is it that easy? NO.
Once she fooled herself by thinking that she was all okay and she'd moved on. But then a trivial thing struck her and all the memories were played back on her mind and swirled over and over again as if the replay button was constantly pushed. There, at the very moment, all the tears she'd held back for the past several months burst out, unstoppably flooding her cheeks.
It'd been almost a year she didn't meet him, and yea she was pretty okay with that, when one day her eyes caught a very familiar figure sitting on a bench at a place she would never imagine to meet with him. She couldn't believe in what she saw, but yes, he was there.
She approached him.
Said hi.
He said hi back and shook her hand. And yea, you know, like in those romances where the electricity climbed up her hand. She'd almost forgot how her hand looked so small in his.
She never realized how much she'd missed him until they met that she felt like crying.
"You still look exactly the same as you were when we last met...and I really missed you..." her heart whispered when she looked intensely into his pale blue eyes. Don't ask me how tempted she was to hug and kiss him. But she knew all has changed, they were not what they used to be. She knew it very well.
Now it was his birthday. She was thinking of giving him a birthday gift but she was afraid it would end up in the trash bin, just like the gift she'd given him the year before.
She's already sick of people saying, including him, "You deserve someone better."
What if she just wanted and needed NOBODY better but HIM??
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